Fate Sealed

Somehow not knowing to write or read in Chinese is really disadvantage to me, I can't blame my parent cause the thing is already happen and maybe they din't expect that their son were so into Chinese, my first year at KTAR I do not have the gut to speak with people around me, maybe they though i shy or lan si or what, but the truth is I feel so embrassing when as Chinese I do not know how to write or speak perfect mandarin. Sometime feel pain in ass when people around me keep asking me why I study SK but not SRJK? DORAEMON, where can I found you??? wish you can bring me to past and change my fate.